I'm Not White

Lead on, oh Kinky Turtle: Being a Black Woman in England

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Disclaimer: This is not poetic, beautiful, proofread, meant to be in a magazine or book. These thoughts are as raw as the wounds I am left with.

When I made the decision to study abroad in Manchester, England I thought I knew what I was…

THERE IS SO MUCH FUCKING WRONG WITH THE WORLD AND ALMOST EVERY BIT OF ITS ISSUES BEGIN WITH RACE.

ARRRGHHHHHHH

I can usually keep calm about these types of things but this week has been all sorts of motivation to set shit on fire.

At first, when I read this post I originally thought,

“well what did you expect”? 

I, too, have visited and lived in another country where I expected to be treated, perhaps a bit more equally, but as is my life, I have never had high expectations for anything, faithfully.

I mean what do you expect when we allow our own country to demoralize our race and sex?

Media is a funny thing.

It’s funny when we all grow up here in the States and expect anyone within a 1,000 mile radius of London to speak with a pretentious British accent, and say “Spot on!”, have fucking tea and crumpets, and spend an evening getting lent off their Union flag, or some shit.

I’m not making light of her situation. But I am sort of irritated that she would think that a form equality might exist behind an oversimplified image of Europe. Although, it’s still not fucking acceptable to think you can manhandle anything that isn’t your own ass.

We all know Europe has dominance issues. I doubt they’ve been able to suppress that in small amount of time they’ve had since they last conquered some land. Europeans are also a lot touchier than Americans. So I definitely could see why boundaries were inappropriately crossed.

As for being seen as exotic .___________.’
I spent six weeks in China for funzies and I know understand that museum feeling. I spent most of my time in Hong Kong, an area accustomed to tourism, but I spent a weekend in a small rural area visiting Buddhist temples with a friend.

Oh, man. I was like a panda in the wild! Not only was I black, speaking decent Mandarin, and had the ability to hold chopsticks, but I was the abominable snowman in the Sahara desert! This experience was intermingled not only with racism, but political beliefs and freedom of speech as well; a topic I will not be focused on today.

Anyway, I think my overall point was, it’s not just the men in Manchester or London, or Europe. Racist and misogynistic views are unfortunately everywhere and it pisses me off that that’s the way it is. 

It especially is hard to want to be an intelligent, vibrant, independent show stopper when you’re: 

A. a woman

B. black

C. relatively curvaceous 

It’s like asking for trouble. SURE, it’s not fair nor right, but everything with a penis thinks it can talk you into a dark alley. Especially if you’re black, and especially if you’ve got more to love.

UGH They’re so stupid. I can’t even continue ranting on about this subject.

/rant 

It's funny...

I actually ended my last post about how I wasn’t going to get into blackface…and here I am.

This is sad.

So, I’d like to say I actually really like K-pop (Korean Pop) music. It’s fun, colorful, cute and on occasion makes me laugh at how much American pop culture inspires things they do.

For this instance, I am not pleased.

I don’t know if blackface should be considered an honor or a mockery, considering, of all people, they paint their faces to emulate black people.

At first, I suppose, I’m glad you seem to think we’re very funny. We surely don’t strive to be (for the most part, I believe). We’re just like any other race, if only perhaps, a bit more inventive artistically and tend to be dramatic.

Let’s face it. Black people excel in music and we know how much of an influence music has on everyone.

But the stereotype of eating watermelon, wearing braided hair, having large asses, and eating chicken, are incredibly ridiculous stereotypes that anyone, from any race, could be found fulfilling.

Most people eat watermelon at picnics ALL THE TIME! It’s a fruit for God’s sake!


I don’t know if you remember this, but it was SUPER FUCKING POPULAR back in the 90’s! Christina Aguilera even did it!

And as for large asses and chicken, my best friend is Chinese and she has a ba-donk, AND the girl’s favorite food is spicy chicken.

You tell me what culture doesn’t include chicken in its food repertoire? 

I honestly have no idea why anyone from South Korea would have a problem with anyone darker than themselves. Sure, the country is very homogenous when it comes to population, but why would they think it’s okay to laugh, poke, and make fun of another race?

Is it jealousy? Is it outright bitterness and unhidden feelings?

Perhaps they were motivated by another great, and inspiring super power?

Perhaps White Americans who may not be the originators, but definitely encouraged (and apparently revitalize, according to the 2012 Oscars) this type of behavior. Maybe this has made it an acceptable action to mistreat others, whether “indirectly” or emotionally.

And it is unfortunate. What do we do to get away from the defacement of racial discrimination? Not just for me, but for everyone else as well?

No not all asian people are ninjas or scientists
No not all white people are “white trash” or “The Man”
No not all hispanic people are janitors or gangsters

And there are so many in betweens!  Why must we be clumped together as one! United by color and culture perhaps, but we are individuals.

I refuse to be a clone.  

Sincerly, 

I’m Not White